Thursday, June 26, 2008

About Me - Or something like it

I have been wondering lately,
whether anyone knows the real me
for I find its easy to pretend and say
"This life is the best it could be"

There is nothing wrong with anything,
but still there is a feeling of something amiss
because there was a child where I am now
and sometimes its him that I really miss

Oh how he wanted to be an adult
And achieve all his hopes and wishes
Which were simple enough, to do what he wanted to do,
and earn enough money to eat Afghani Chooza and other exotic dishes

He also wished then to have sufficient money
to buy all the books he could get his hands on
And how he wanted to do something great
Like capture Wimbledon, or become a soccer icon

But knowing him, he would have actually been happy
and I guess so would have been you
doing nothing much but living in peace
and making some money by writing a bad novel or two
(Actually he liked his parents working for him)

The child that stood here is long dead,
along with all his hopes and aspirations that were born
Now if I get any money and any time
I waste it on alcohol or buying some good JJ porn

:"Why Why Why?" I ask myself sometimes
when I am feeling a bit guilty and a bit sad
Have I failed to be the adult I wanted to be
and why I have turned out to be so bad

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

you probably didn't know the joys of alcohol and JJ porn(whatever that is) when you were growing up! i bet you would have wished for this life only...

Ankur said...

Awesome!! captures so many emotions!!

Sreeni said...

Was this abt u Saini? I felt you reached those goals, ableit in the virtual versions of the same and obly enjoyed both booze and JJ equally...I guess you have handled it OK :D

zubin said...

(Anon) JJ was for Jenna Jameson (a) obviously u dont watch enough porn b)U didnt get the entire picture c) U really think so???? Alcohol and porn better than winning winbledon?? Come on!!!
(Ankur) Thanks a lot mate
(Sreeni) Thanks. Have I??

Manu Gupta / gilly@iitmadras said...

a good one....

Prude said...

Nice poetry.

Just coz he's an adult doesn't mean he can't take a few chances and make a few changes and probably take a few of those lost dreams head on. He can. Question is, does he really want to? :-)

Prude said...

Nice poetry.

Just coz he's an adult doesn't mean he can't take a few chances and make a few changes and probably take a few of those lost dreams head on. He can. Question is, does he really want to? :-)

Anonymous said...

Good one, but looks like you completed it (especially last para) in hurry.... Like you just wanted to finish it of...

Anonymous said...

wimbledon - you need to be a lot fitter and play a lot more ...

you can still spend your money on good food and books ...

your life will be what you want it to be ... (you may get into the senior wimbledons if u start seriously now!)

Shefali said...

no new entry... u broke ur promise!

Kannan said...

Zubin,
In your quest to question life you failed to realize the fact that it is you who is questioned by life! (This is the impression I got by reading your posts)